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We will open a book, it's pages are blank, that is New year's day. A time for new beginnings and fresh starts. Never forget our angels but, remember they would want our fresh start. ~Susana M.


 

Every minute is a blessing , and everyday you get 1,440 of them ~ Be Blessed my family and friends ♥ use your minutes wisely .

Nothing More to Give By Susana M. ~

They say that the Lord never gives us more than we can bear

So, I have accepted and loved and always been there

For my family, my friends, people in need

Whatever it is I try to help thee

I have prayed and cried and prayed each day

For the Lord to help me just find my way

I have tried to forgive the pain and the losses

The feeling of being tortured emotionally and physically is still always there

The day my soul was invaded I had tried to stand tall

The loss of my mother and my sister then topped it all

No matter how far ahead I get

I always seem to fall

I love and love and love some more

I give my faith in those I trusted only to be hurt some more

I give faith that when I do good for someone in need

That they would keep there word

But, instead I get burned and told a few harsh words

I never learn

I always give in

No matter how good I try to be

I never seem to win

I ask nicely

I pray hard

And there is always going to be something more

There will always be excuses and lies for me to endure

And sometimes I feel as though I can't give no more

So, now when asked will you help me?

I simply say no

The last time I said yes, I simply trusted

And long and behold was that a mistake

The ones you love

They for sure will take

They never give back

They take you for a fool

That is one thing of life

It is just so cruel

It has killed my spirit

and my will to do good

I just don't feel as if I have any more
to give as I use to and would have and should

I feel as though I just have lost my way
Today is truly just a very sad day

I simply don't know how much I can bare

The ones I love just don't seem to be there

Many just take me for granite

Others simply have no time

Or else they just don't care about things like mine

So many take life for granite

Many including mine

I ask the Lord just how much more do you want me to endure

I am trying but, just don't know if I can do it anymore

It kills me to watch the lies and deceit of others

It kills me when people don't learn life's lessons

Including mothers

The mothers that don't realize what they have until it will be gone

The mothers that claim to love but, don't love themselve enough to

realize their own wrong

Then there are those who don't realize how truly blessed they are
The ones who have their mothers
to have and hold
to call and ask for help

That is one part of my pain that is truly felt
For I have lost my mother
And I miss her so

It breaks my heart to watch so many that don't
love their mothers as well

Mothers many may seem crazy
As mine did to me

But, as I grew up
She was always right indeed

Trust no one she said
Trust only yourself

for you will one day see
the pain I have felt


If you think I am crazy now
One day you will see
You will want to thank me

You will see that family
which is supposed to be first

They will be first
to screw you over in the end

This messages she gave me
I should have listened

Family indeed should have been first always
Many just don't seem to understand

Your mother will love you
unconditionally until the bitter end

When they tell you things that hurt
It is mainly for your own good

It is better to hear from your mother
That someone else who would
Leave you homeless, loveless and in the street

There are the ones who take and take
and don't give back anything in return

This lesson from my mother
to this day I have learned

There are so many who need to learn
Learn to accept the gifts you are given
and to love those who love you

Stop taking these precious moments of life for granite

Life is the here and now

For tomorrow there are no guarantees
Fix what you can do today

Remember the pain I cry for thee


Susana M. ~
Thank you to my mother. For with her great knowledge I try to endure each day. Although she is my angel in heaven, I think of her everyday. I miss her hugs and lectures and her speeches that made me crazy. But, in the end, I am grateful for she loved me. She loved me more than anyone on this earth.
She loved me from the moment of my birth. There will never be anyone like my mother ever again.
"I pray for all who don't listen."

Christmas Angel by Susana M.

A beautiful angel

so selfless and sweet

came into my life

with open arms to greet

No judgements

No questions

Not a single word

Just kindness and warmth and love

to spread

No need to worry

thy angel would say

I am happy to help

and bring cheer to you today

I remember the goodness and blessings in life

and I want to share my wealth

of love and kindness with you tonight

Take time with me

a moment and we'll talk

Remember me as we go for our walk

As, I too have shared your pain

and have felt your despair

And the love and wealth

I have gained through the years

The Lord has blessed me

and I want to bless you

with simple Christmas kindness

Take a moment and a breath

you so well deserve

You also spread so much love and give
looking for nothing in return

I want you to feel the blessings in return

Remember that you are truly a good soul

Never forget that there are those of us

who do know

Remember that I love you

and you are too kind

So, to the Christmas Angel

thank you for being mine.

Thank you for sharing and loving and being you.

Thank you for being my Christmas Angel

May God continue to bless you


Love Susana M. ~ copyright  December 25, 2009

 

This site supports the Purple Ribbon Campaign

For Domestic Violence Awareness.

October is National Domestic Violence Awarness Month.

Break The Silence! Stop Domestic Violene!

 

 

This youtube video was made in loving memory of my mother. My heart will go on was one of the songs she loved the most for me to sing. So, I sang the song and made her a Rememberance video. It is trivial compared to all the wonderful things she did for me.

You never realize just how much your mother does for you until you grow up and have kids of your own. Everytime she said, "One day, you will have kids and you will see what you do to me!" She was right. My mother gave her life for us. She worked two jobs and was a single mom.

 

I miss her lectures, hugs, kisses and words of wisdom. I miss her just being there no matter what.

I will never forget any of the many lessons she has taught me.

 

Family always comes FIRST!

 And although, this past year, has taught me that many in our extended family don't follow that same belief.

 I am the lucky one.

 

They spent many years belittling my mother for drinking and her ways of things.

They took advantage of her, stole from her and in the end, she had me.

I am truly the lucky one.

 

In the end, I grew up with the right morals and my mom was the better person after all.

So, the rest of the world can, rest assured, I am my mother's daughter.

I will fight for her same beliefs.

 I will fight for my grandmother.

I will not tolerate the drama they gave her.

 

My mother is my heart and soul.

She is the one whom loved me unconditionally and whole heartedly.

Without my grandmother, I would never have had a mother to bless me with such a wonderful gift.

I love you Mamasita.

 

Para Siempre con migo!

xoxoxox

Susana Maria

 

Booboo Big Daddy Casillo

Spetember 13, 2009 marks his first angelversary.

We miss and love him soo much.

I hope he is happy in heaven with mom and Chico. 

 

 

http://bigdaddybooboocasillo.pets-memories.com/ 

 

 

 

Please continue to pray for my grandmother Maximina Estrella.

God Bless

 

Susana Maria

Subject: The Mayonnaise Jar
 

 

The Mayonnaise Jar

When things in your life seem, Almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class
And had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, If the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked The students again
If the jar was full.. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand
And poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded
With an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced Two cups of coffee from under the table
And poured the entire contents Into the jar, effectively
Filling the Empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, As the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that This jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things - your partner, family,
children, health, friends, favourite passions and your Maker.
Things that if everything else was lost
And only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter Like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --
The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
'there is no room for The pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time And energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for The things that are
Important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
In fact regularly keep shining up those golf balls as we too often neglect those that are most important to our continued and long term happiness!

There will always be time
To clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand
And inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a cup of coffee or two with one of your friends.'
 
(Note This hits close to home. Especially in regards to my grandmother and family)
 
So, sadly, my angelfamily friends and inlaws are more golfballs to me. May the Lord bless you all.


 

REST IN PEACE CHICO CASILLO.

2/25/1990 - 5/14/2009

 

Our newest angel

MAY HE BE WITH MY MOMMY NOW OVER THE RAINBOW BRIDGE.  

 

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MY FRIEND.  

This site is dedicated in loving memory to all of our family angels.

I am a firm believer that we never forget our loved ones

 whom have left us to see our Lord.

 

I have created this site to keep all of their memories alive.

This is for my family as well as my husband's family.

This is for our family and future generations to honor and share the love of their lives.

 

 

Please feel free to click any of the links at the side of the site.

 

It will take you to the Individual pages for all of our angels.

To the left is the links for candles, condolences and life Story.

These links will take you

 to the individual custom pages

of our family angels.

Please feel free to click candles

to light a virtual candle. Yes, they are free.

However, I assure you they are always

seen and appreciated by our family.

Please feel free to email me should you so choose

susana_regan@yahoo.com

 

Please feel free to click add text on any of the given custom pages.

This will allow you to share memories and add photos.

I have added anyone who I think may want updates to the once a week email list.

Please email me if you want to be added or taken off.

Please know all i.p. addresses will be seen by website manager.

So, even if you don't light candles I can find out who you are.

So, don't post anything un cool.

Yes, this site is right click disabled.

 

So, as to not have photos or graphics stolen.

As well as to protect the children in relation to this site.

Other than that thankyou for visiting and God bless you all.

Susana M. Regan_Cloutier

©2008

 

 

Dance Like There's No Tomorrow.
author unknown
The sun arises in the sky
The birds begin to sing
As I start my day
Off to do my thing
 
The hours click by on the clock
Soon the day does end
Did I call my family
Check in with my friend ?
 
My father was recently called home
To sit in Heaven above
Did I remember to tell him
It was him that I did love
 
Now the days click faster
I know he is at peace
Will the emptiness I feel
Ever, ever cease
 
Suddenly my days,
Take on a meaning that is new
I am not in such a hurry
I step back and enjoy the view
 
I hope my heart stops hurting
Good memories fill my mind
Enjoying all my surroundings
Sharing with friends in kind
 
I say to all my friends
This is to you from lil' me
Dance like no one's watching
Enjoy the life to be
 
For as the days go flying
Things that used to be important to me
Really aren't as important
I've set my spirit free
 
So when you awake tomorrow
Take some advice from  me
Dance like no one's watching
Then you will begin to see
ty honeydust for sharing with me
 

 

Some photos on this site were used from ourangelfamilies.com

Family photos were used with permission from

the Immediate Regan Spouse and siblings

and mother to Alphonse Rocco Casillo

John Paul pics were used with permission from his mother.

FAMILY PHOTOS ARE THE COPYRIGHT OF OUR FAMILY.

IMIKIMI FAMILY GRAPHICS ARE THE COPYRIGHT OF

SUSANA

 

 

 

The following link was made available courtesy of Mrs. Smart.

Thank you and God Bless always my friend.

http://HeartTouchGraphics.piczo.com/susanasgraphicoffers?cr=7

Feel free to view other angelfamilies graphics offers by clicking home on the above url.

It will give you many links to many beautiful graphics.

For graphics assistance please email me at

susana_regan@yahoo.com

 

Kindly put GRAPHICS REQUEST in subject line.

I love helping to make graphics for our angels.

It gives me great peace.

For online grief support and graphics to use

please visit

http://angelfamiliesonline.com/ 

ty to Betty for this Domestic Violence Ribbon!

Please remember Domestic Violence occurs everyday. It is not just in October. Please help save a life! Join the purple ribbon campaign.

 

 

Thankyou to ourangelfamlilies for the support of this memorial site.

They have been true angels to our family.

I have made many friends whom have helped me get through the hardest times.

God Bless you all.

Susana

http://linda-anne-regan.angelfamiliesonline.com/

 

 

 

 http://margarita-estrella-regan-casillo.angelfamiliesonline.com/ 

Thankyou to Irene for this beutiful graphic.

 

 

 

 

 

May all our angels be happily watching over us in heaven.

 

http://bigdaddybooboocasillo.pets-memories.com 

 

 

Thankyou to all our friends for their continued ongoing support and rememberance of our angels.

We truly appreciate all the love and support.

God Bless

Susana M. Regan_Cloutier

Daughter, sis, granddaughter, cousin to all our angels

 

 

 

 

 

 


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Susana Regan
 

Miss Mary Mack

 

OMG. I was talking with Gabi today. He wanted to play his hand game apples. ( He made this up himself.

 

Anyways, it got me to thinking of how Linda and I use to play Miss Mary Mack and say say my playmate lol.

 

That was like so long ago. I can't believe I remembered. It was a classic memory to remember. We were weird but, it was fun.

 

I miss you Linda. Always and forever sisters!

MARYANN
 
I HAVE SO MANY GREAT MEMORIES OF LINDA. ONE OF THEM IS THE GREAT WATER FIGHT WE USED TO HAVE. I LIVED UPSTAIRS FROM LINDA AND WE WOULD GO CRAZY. BUCKETS OF WATER AND CUPS OF WATER ALL OVER INSDE THE HOUSE AND OUT SIDE. WE USED THE SPRAYER FROM THE SINK AND WE WOULD HIDE BUCKETS OF WATER OVER THE DOOR. LINDA AND I WOULD CRACK UP LAUGHING AND THATS MY FAVORITE MEMORY OF LINDA HER LAUGH. EVEN WHEN WE HAD TO CLEAN IT ALL UP, IT WAS SO FUNNY. I KNOW ALOT OF YOU WILL REMEMBER THESE TIMES IT WAS ONE OF LINDAS FAVORITE THINGS. SHE IS TRULY MISSED
bruce
 
i knew your mom for a little while but i never will forget her -first time we met was at dunning donets -we  went out to eat some times -she love her onion soup-i will never forget that-me and her talked a lot -i drove her to work once
Susana Remembers
 

Memories of Mom and Linda, wow! there are soo many!

 

I miss their craziness. I miss they way they made us laugh and cry.

I miss their smiles and their scents of their hair when we would hug.

 

I miss our many 3 way phone calls and long distance bills.

 

I miss being able to just call them whenever I wanted.

Good Lord, I miss them.

 

I miss all the family parties, the fights lol, they craziness.

It was our familia.

 

It doesn't matter what happened, WE WERE ALWAYS THERE FOR EACH OTHER REGARDLESS!

SO, in a sense I feel so alone now.

 

But, I NEVER FORGET ANYTHING ABOUT THEM.

 

Latest Condolences
Jo-Ann Pacenta~Lauren's mom Peace love and joy
 

May your family find peace, love and joy in the new year sweet angels.

ROSE GM TO BRITTANY SYFERT THINKING OF YOU & YOUR LOVED ONES
 

ROSE GM TO ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT
 

TheShipman's-AngelLindaTaylor Halloween Greetings!
 

Susana Regan with arms wide open!
 
My sister loved that song with arms wide open! I try not to listen to it. I remember her being pregnant at my house with Nico. She said can you hear it? That's the heartbeat at the beginning of the song!sigh, I miss her. But, she loved that song and said, That is what I want to say to my son! :)
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