Margarita and Linda Anne Regan Casillo

They say that the Lord never gives us more than we can bear

So, I have accepted and loved and always been there

For my family, my friends, people in need

Whatever it is I try to help thee

I have prayed and cried and prayed each day

For the Lord to help me just find my way

I have tried to forgive the pain and the losses

The feeling of being tortured emotionally and physically is still always there

The day my soul was invaded I had tried to stand tall

The loss of my mother and my sister then topped it all

No matter how far ahead I get

I always seem to fall

I love and love and love some more

I give my faith in those I trusted only to be hurt some more

I give faith that when I do good for someone in need

That they would keep there word

But, instead I get burned and told a few harsh words

I never learn

I always give in

No matter how good I try to be

I never seem to win

I ask nicely

I pray hard

And there is always going to be something more

There will always be excuses and lies for me to endure

And sometimes I feel as though I can't give no more

So, now when asked will you help me?

I simply say no

The last time I said yes, I simply trusted

And long and behold was that a mistake

The ones you love

They for sure will take

They never give back

They take you for a fool

That is one thing of life

It is just so cruel

It has killed my spirit

and my will to do good

I just don't feel as if I have any more
to give as I use to and would have and should

I feel as though I just have lost my way
Today is truly just a very sad day

I simply don't know how much I can bare

The ones I love just don't seem to be there

Many just take me for granite

Others simply have no time

Or else they just don't care about things like mine

So many take life for granite

Many including mine

I ask the Lord just how much more do you want me to endure

I am trying but, just don't know if I can do it anymore

It kills me to watch the lies and deceit of others

It kills me when people don't learn life's lessons

Including mothers

The mothers that don't realize what they have until it will be gone

The mothers that claim to love but, don't love themselve enough to

realize their own wrong

Then there are those who don't realize how truly blessed they are
The ones who have their mothers
to have and hold
to call and ask for help

That is one part of my pain that is truly felt
For I have lost my mother
And I miss her so

It breaks my heart to watch so many that don't
love their mothers as well

Mothers many may seem crazy
As mine did to me

But, as I grew up
She was always right indeed

Trust no one she said
Trust only yourself

for you will one day see
the pain I have felt


If you think I am crazy now
One day you will see
You will want to thank me

You will see that family
which is supposed to be first

They will be first
to screw you over in the end

This messages she gave me
I should have listened

Family indeed should have been first always
Many just don't seem to understand

Your mother will love you
unconditionally until the bitter end

When they tell you things that hurt
It is mainly for your own good

It is better to hear from your mother
That someone else who would
Leave you homeless, loveless and in the street

There are the ones who take and take
and don't give back anything in return

This lesson from my mother
to this day I have learned

There are so many who need to learn
Learn to accept the gifts you are given
and to love those who love you

Stop taking these precious moments of life for granite

Life is the here and now

For tomorrow there are no guarantees
Fix what you can do today

Remember the pain I cry for thee


Susana M. ~
Thank you to my mother. For with her great knowledge I try to endure each day. Although she is my angel in heaven, I think of her everyday. I miss her hugs and lectures and her speeches that made me crazy. But, in the end, I am grateful for she loved me. She loved me more than anyone on this earth.
She loved me from the moment of my birth. There will never be anyone like my mother ever again.
"I pray for all who don't listen."